Endings almost always come with new beginnings- it's like an unspoken thing. Whether or not you like it, there will always be something new to excite/deal with/be enthralled or consumed with. A mere part of the puzzle of life; a lone piece which will eventually fit snugly with another, before you know it. Not all are useful- in fact, some can serve to be rather detrimental; a temporary distraction/relief/high which will eventually mean nothing in the larger scheme of things. Pick your battles, they say. And pick wisely, for not all are meant to be fought. Some are meant plainly to be surrendered to God.

In the past week or so, there were decisions that had to be made. Nothing earth-shattering, but important, nevertheless. I'm glad to say that i've made them, and have come out feeling like a tonne of weight has been lifted off my shoulders; there is a strange sense of peace and relief, and a great burden has been lifted. Ahead of me lies cleanly cut grass; a fresh start, a new friendship, a sense of purpose, and at the centre of it all, God.

I just want to be me for a while, so i'm letting go.

Today, and actually for the past week, I've been doing alot of thinking. I've decided to let go of some things that I think are not necessarily beneficial in my recovery. Some friends. Some Habits. I know it'll be tough. But i was just thinking. Whats the point on keeping in contact or staying with friends whom you Know Just make you feel worse about yourself. Arent friends suppose to be the ones to help you? So yes, in the past couple of days (Hours really), I've decided to let go. It'll be hard, having to see you almost everyday, But with constant reminders, I know i can :)

There' s so much i want to type. But Bird, Jan, Kelly, Kriss and Sam, You guys have no idea how much you mean to me. You mean the world to Me. and People like you are what make the Journey worthwhile. I love you guys. =)