Wednesday, July 08, 2009 , 8:11 AM

My dear love,

Please stop torturing yourself emotionally. You seem to make things worse than they appear.
Your tendency to obsess over everything leaves you drained and distracted. (Not a good time, considering your N's are near.)
I do understand how you feel, and why you feel these complicating emotions. I just wish that... when I hear your cracked voice, and when you pause for a real long while to compose yourself over the phone... I just wish i could be there physically to hug you, or to be there. (Not that you've done it recently, but still...)
Even if it means just sitting on your couch in silence, or if it means you having to vent everything on me.
It kills me, you know? It really does. Please please please try to focus on your studies? For me? I'd go down there and study with you, if that's what it takes.
I don't want you to go into another cycle of self-loathing due to bad results again.
I'm so happy that you've settled in your class! It's awesome to hear you talk about your day.
I love it when you're happy.

Love you more than you'll ever know.
-Rens (Aka, your fiance. P.S, WHEN WILL WE EVER GET MARRIED ALREADY?)