Eventually you stop feeling sorry for yourself and just appreciate what's around you. what you have, like best friends who send you friendship bracelets in colours of the rainbow to make your day, or being able to apologize to each other and move on. amazing music, people who love you even though sometimes you can't feel it because you're 7 hours away. friends who've just moved over, friends whom you haven't spoken to in ages but you know its okay, because your friendship is covenental. Jesus because you know He holds the future.

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I AM ABSOLUTELY BUSHED. One week of school and I'm so exhausted.. from work, from thinking about having to mug this hard for the next 6-7 months. tuition later at six-thirty, then relaxxxxxxxxxx. listen to music. do homework if I feel like it. I have a feeling that over the next 6-7 months I will burnout at least two times, and then realise that it's not that bad, then relax a bit. after that I will start panicking about not being able to do well and then burnout again.

So, I have decided to prevent this. do tawg every night. be accountable to Jo, and other people if they'd like. worship. do my moleskine to keep me sane. sleep in on weekends. joshua 1:9. very scared. but my God is bigger. yes. sick. awesome.

I need one more picture to finish off my roll of film in my lomolitos. contemplating buying another 3 rolls on the website.. but I really really want to finish my roll off so i can see the pictures I took over the holidays etc. and also need to develop a lot of photos...

oh my myyyyy i need to stone for a bit.