I feel like a sore thumb. like someone who isn't needed, at all, like I need you guys a lot more than you need me because I'm sad and socially deficient and either too loud, too shy, too weird.. I know its not your fault/ you don't mean it but I feel ____ ___. I also feel horrible saying this.

But it's only a feeling, and if I push it farrrr away it can't hurt me so that's what I'm gonna do - push it faar far away and never let it come close again. I feel like I used to have so much to hold onto. And now it feels like there's nothing. Right now I hate this season.

I wish someone would just sweep me off my feet and take me far away from all this shit.

On a muchh happier note, i watched this a few days ago with Joles and it wasn't as sad as I expected it to be! Buttt the soundtrack is soo pretty; imma get it soon (=